Amazing... how information can change you. Change the way you view the world, the way you treat people. Learnt more in 15 minutes about how people view me than I ever could in months. And then again, its only a view from one source.

One source... Satisfaction, peace, love, strength, joy, hope. Where it all comes from. All these are free... But just how much of it is actually pressed into your palm? None... Not one. You have to take... You have to grab. Correct me if I'm wrong.... These things are not forced onto you... You don't magically have them when you spend time with God. They are there for you to take, that is true. but its just out of the reach of your grimy little hands so that you actually have to get off your butt and do something to get it. As far as I see it, God just ensures that you don't get overwhelmed... And He's been faithful with that.

Once again, reputation comes to mind... But then it goes right out.
Things that go unsaid... unspoken words, prejudice, impressions... like a parasite eating away at the body of Christ.

The action itself is not wrong... But the motive behind it. It stinks...
Ask again why you don't have it. Ask again why your prayers go unanswered. Ask again why you struggle so hard. Ask why you can't find it.
And I'll ask of your purpose for it...